Adjusting to tough changes

I'm a little afraid of writing this next post, mostly because of an argument I had with my partner on the soundslides project two weeks ago.

On a Thursday, my soundslides partner wanted me to meet at a child care center to help her interview a single mother for our project at 9:30 a.m. That night, I asked her whether to go to the Crossroads child care center across the street from El Camino. At the time she said yes.

On Friday, I arrived on campus and I was about to head to the Crossroads center. Then my partner started to send me text messages telling me to hurry up. At about 9:30 a.m., she sends me text messages telling me that I'm an f---ing idiot for missing her interview. I was furious, because the Crossroads center door was locked and she was getting angry at me for something I couldn't control.

It turns out that she wanted me to head to the child care center on the El Camino campus. I kept trying to call her, but she never picked up her cell phone, probably because she was fed up with me. Then she sends me a text messages which said, "Thanks for nothing." I was furious. I had no idea what I did wrong, but she was blaming the entire project on me.

On top of this, she kept blaming me for not showing up to her interview. I would have liked to get in contact with her, but she was terribly rude to me. I admit that I was cursing like a sailor, but really, she was getting upset at me for almost no reason at all.

As a result, I was scolded by the professor for cursing in the newsroom, among other things. For some reason, I ended up in some stupid mess that wasn't even under my control. I finished the project by myself, but I still feel like I was unfairly criticized for a whole slew of problems that were blamed on me.

To make matters worse, my iVideo partner informed me that I had to check out a video camera for his story. Unfortunately, he reminded me on Friday afternoon. The only time I could check it out was on Friday morning. And I couldn't check out the video camera on Monday, because my psychiatrist appointment was at the same time at 10:30 a.m.

It turns out that this was the last available time that the film department was using the camera equipment. I was frustrated with how everything turned out in the last two weeks. I haven't been able to concentrate. I'm afraid that my teacher's going to flunk me for my "bad" behavior and my scheduling issues with my iVideo partner.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a big train wreck. I've known a few girls I liked, who all blamed all their problems on me. I can't go very far into detail about all my personal problems, but I often end up as the victim of their strangely sinister entanglements.

Of course, my relationships don't get in the way of my work anymore. However, I still don't understand why these certain girls ended up bullying me around. I don't even know why this always has to happen because of a girl, either. I mean, am I doing something wrong to end up with all this bad luck with girls?

Whatever the case, I can't stop all my projects now. I have to overcome these strange events of happenstance. Maybe I'll end up with better luck this week.